life… of life.

nothing crazy is happening right now… I don’t feel just so inclined to write about something .. so I guess I”m just talking.  Lately, I’ve just been learning a lot.  period.  I have the mind of a baby most days, it’s like a sponge.  I’m always thinking, looking around, wondering, daydreaming, all the above.  But, all of this recent sponge-like learning has been because of Jesus.  Haven’t you ever just wondered why things work out the way they do, or maybe why they don’t work out?  It’s like you can look at something, see how perfect it would be and why it would be… how it could be fruitful and nice.  That’s where my daydreaming comes in and turns the sponge-like mind into a rock.  close-minded, seeing one thing and ignoring any sort of evidence it just might not be right.  It’s so easy to be stubborn and just choose to see one thing,  and no matter what happens, you still are counting on that one thing.  The past couple weeks, I feel like God just shook me and yelled “WAKE UP!”.  since that’s happened, i’m sure i’m back to the sponge-like mind.  open to things, using discernment, not being foolish with my heart and what I invest it into.  I’ve been thinking about how God gives and takes away.  Sometimes the things He takes away really aren’t too convenient for us, and we can get caught up in hurt of losing something.  There is nothing wrong with being it hurt, I believe it’s a natural thing.  But what you do to deal with that hurt is what matters.  I’ve just learned that, yeah, sometimes things get hard and I can’t understand why they happen.  But in this story of God, not to be cliche, I’m just learning everything happens for a reason.  If I just continue to look down this really narrow road at Him, not getting distracted by the wide ones on both side, but just keep my focus on the beautiful prize, I’ll be ok.  Everything will make sense.  I believe that.  

random, yes.  but i’m at a coffee shop and have free time. i love all of you.