my experience, my heart, my convictions, our growing.

Well, as you can see I definitely didn’t blog as much as I thought I would while up at Hume Lake….sorry guys.  As I replay everything over and over again in my head I try to think of the best way to tell you guys about it and describe it, but only one word comes to mind.  God.  Everything was simply about God.  The sessions, the worship, the staff, the campers, the relationships I made…it was all knit together by the big man.  I would go out late when it’s nice and dark just look at the overwhelming blanket of stars that covered the sky every night, and I couldn’t help but to feel some sort of teary-eyed emotion in the wonder of how beautiful my God is.  The trees, the mountains, the lakes and waterfalls, it almost seems like they were all put together in a picture painted by the artist to show His beauty and glory. 

 I learned when I was up at Hume that I can tend to put God in a box and only allow Him to occupy so much of my life and time.  Over the weeks of understanding God’s nature and love I started to feel extremely convicted by this.  I’ve come down the mountain and back home understanding that God is IT.  He matters in every decision, action, conversation, paycheck and thought I’ll ever have.   I pray the Lord has LOTS of mercy on me for whom I’ve subconsciously molded Him to be in my life this past year.  I realize how ok I’ve been with making Him small in my love and friendships and it kills me, literally.  I believe the “put to death” part is, in a cool way, already taking action due to the amount of conviction I’ve felt this past month. 

 I guess that it bothers me that we tend to get super spiritual when we attend awesome camps like Hume and all the sudden live our lives completely for God, pouring into complete strangers and loving them as if they were family.  That part is cool, but what about the lives we lead at home?  Who am I really when I’ve come down the mountain and am back home where I thrive and should have more fellowship than I do anywhere else?  What would it look like if we could all live this way, passionate about what the awesome living God is doing in our lives and who He is.  Seeking Him day in and day out ready to serve!  I said earlier that I could see how everything was knit together by the Lord when I was up at Hume, but it’d be foolish of me to say that can only happen at a camp in California.  I don’t say all this in hopes of you getting done reading this screaming revival, but more so to say, we can do better, a lot better.  We can love better, serve better, show compassion better, put on humility better, and all the above.  I’m sick of lukewarm, it doesn’t do it for me.  I think that’s because I was created to glorify God, which results in true satisfaction in Him, which also explains why I would feel empty and bored with life at times this past year… I honestly did a sorry job of letting God be “it” for me.  

 

It’s almost 4:00 in the morning… jet lag is kicking my butt.  I know this all may be a little scattered, but it’s on my heart.  I’ll explain more of this later… I definitely got a lot more to say.  Hey, what can you expect from a guy at 4 in the morning anyways.  I love you all dearly, now lets change the world.